A tribute to steve lawler

i know i havn't known you for long but i love your music and it makes me happy but it makes me do things that arn't really good for me so i plead that next time u visit the end make me hate your music so i don't get crazy thoughts.... I Loved last night the beats rocked and you got the whole place shaking! Please be sure that i'm not crazy next time.... Ciao tiamo bello! 

Lol homosexuality was concidered a mental illness untill the lat ninties! hahah i knew it was named the plague of society but seriously untill 74? So should i be calling all my friends crazy? we r all part of the same looney bin !



i just thought it was funny...



back to cussing out the homophobic literature...



oh my god look at this poster!!!!!! :S

it made me mad... dont use the baby! i think i can speak for alot of non homophobic people that this poster is not ethical...

Damn Coursework!

I have this horrible habit of leaving my coursework until the very last minute well i now have 4 days to design a website, write a 1000 word review on it, a logbook that dates back 6 weeks and 2 essays which include 2000 word media report, 3000 word analysis of 2 movies and still i cant get myself off of blogs or off of face-book for that matter.

I've watched 4 lesbian movies 2 gay (for my essays:P) 

Made lunch 

Had  dessert 

Downloaded Fiests new album

Downloaded Greys Anatomy

Bought tickets to Cirque du Soleil and Tegan and Sara

Browsing Tiesto's tickets wondering which ticket i should get...

Lol took the picture for this blog 

Called my family sobbing I MISS YOU 1000 times

 I'm procrastinating and not giving two flying shits. So someone pray for me and give me some fear of failing or pray that i get it done by monday. 

Going back to watching my movies maybe they will help me write more....

Comfort food...

Why is it when you get hungry you eat , when ur sad u eat , when your in love you starve then u get hurt then u eat! whats up with food! Personally i adore food dont get me wrong i spend more on food then i do on clothes. I make a mental note on what foods to eat when i make my trip back home to kuwait every holiday! But seriously this has to stop! i look like an ugly pregnant ball of fat. The other day i had a relly stressful exam to study for and i ate the whole kitchen including the expired cookies that were surprisingly good. Thwn when i was done and 70% sure i had failed guess where i went? YUp u got it! SHOPPING FOR GROCERIES! I didnt get junk i decided to cook up a sophisticated meal! yeah right! Sophisticatedly FATNING!

so my question is WHY FOOD WHY NOT EXERCISE!

Welcome 2008 with open arms!

I woke up one day and realized that im too deeply infatuated with conforming to what society accepts as normal. Im becoming one of those! the girls i look at and say "poor thing let her relax! " i used to look at them and say i hope im not ever going to live like them! when subconsciously I AM indeed living as a hypocrite. I now remember little things my friends would say to me like Z why are u so scared lets go meet strangers ! and id pretend i was ok with it but my subconscious was scared shitless that id get labeled a slut when half the time i don't know the people nor am i doing anything remotely slutty. BEFORE I BECOME PINK PRINCESS (i love you to pieces but i never want to be as paranoid as u) This winter Nq and i hung out and she kept on calling me paranoid whenever we did anything that deviated from norm! somehow it got to me and i started to realize that i am fucking paranoid! im a fucking Paranoid freak id be a schizophrenic if i keep on doing this to myself! So heres a contract that i wrote for me to stick by this year:

I Z of Nzn will try my best to complete the list below of things that will improve the inner moi and make me a better, less paranoid, social and less of an insecure person.

• Slap myself every time i become a paranoid freak
• Meet new strangers
• have more "take care of me time"
• Never care what people would say as long as i know im not doing anything wrong to myself.
• learn how to flirt with girls in cars without squirming into my seat and failing miserably.
  
• keep more in touch with those that mean the world to me
• To not get scared when im confronted with feelings towards someone whos not socially accepted.
• Let my hair down (not literally its not long enough)
• Read at least 1 educational book a month thats not to do with my course
• GO TO THE GYM AND LOOSE 10 freaking kilos that i have gainged in 2 years!
• Do something crazy like jump out of a plane (its coming i swear those who know i've been saying it forever)
• Take more pictures
• Oh and watch all the musicals showing in London! I only have 5 left!
  

Party harder than ever but safer than last month !

Z

theres more but its impossible to finish them all ill add more when some of these are accomplished!